Forget yourself.

For just one moment, forget yourself and your worries. Think of all the troubles and hardships around you. Leave your inner world and observe the outer world. Think of others. Forget it all, forget yourself.

So much to be stressed about: homework, tests, projects, relationships, friendships, family, and just life in general. I became blind-sighted once again, losing sight of the outer world, of my family and friends. I became so obsessed and frustrated with my own problems, but finally something shook me.

I looked upon Facebook and noticed that my friend Ali had posted a note, explaining the mishaps and stress of her past week. I saw the pain she felt, and then I saw how horrible of a friend I had been.

"But I would be home this weekend. Then that got so complicated. I felt so shat on by these so called friends, who call me a close friend and offer to help me out, but only at their convenience. God forbid we think that a huge family trauma, and the impending death of a close loved one more important than our own agendas. A friend in need, more important than impromptu plans? More important than getting to spend time with so and so and avoid such and such?"

Nobody likes to feel called out. Everyone likes to say they care and show affection to their friends. Yea, I did care about Ali, and I have been thinking about her and her recent struggle. However, I certainly didn't have the strong feeling of affection behind my words, and as such, I felt exactly as she described it, "face value fake friends."

So tonight, I learn yet another lesson in life, and I learn to open my eyes, and my mind, to the outer world.