Truth is, I'm really just a lost soul.

I really have no direction in my life, and my state of awareness is either distracted or hopeless. I'm either distracted by all the material crap in this world to know what I'm doing, or I'm hopelessly aware of the slum my life is in.

Truth is, I'm lost.

I find myself more depressed more often, and the thoughts I've been having aren't that great... in fact, they're pretty grim. Morbid, even.

What the hell do I do? Get diagnosed and take medicine? Kill myself? Restart my life in hopes of happiness or direction? Move somewhere? Do something spectacular?

Or do I just sit here and continue my useless daily routines...

Can a person really change?

Ah, but the real question is, what is your definition of person? Can you define yourself if you don't know yourself? You're a lazy bum who has no direction in life. No, that's because I'm lost. I don't know who I am. Loophole. Paradox. Mayhem and chaos. No resolutions.