But now that changes. The challenge begins. I'll take all of this away and find out who I really am. I'll see who I used to be, and perhaps, who I've been all along. It's been too long since I've actually thought my thoughts and wrote my feelings. Taking the time to see things and think them through can only be a positive, beneficial thing for me.
I'm going to try my best to leave my Xbox 360, and possibly PS3 if I have one, at home as I return to college. I'll have books and my laptop to keep me occupied and entertained, and if that's not enough, maybe I'll bring along my old Gameboy Color with some Pokemon Crystal. That's an old part of me right there, before all the social and cultural nonsense came about.
New Year's Resolutions, perhaps? But what's to keep me from setting my goals at an arbitrary moment in time? I don't need the "turn" of the "New Year" to rediscover myself. I can begin that journey right now.
I just saw that you joined as a "follower" of my blog Lotus. Thanks for the compliment (and I do regard it as one).
ReplyDeleteTwo quick things: One, the hurt-love-hurt cycle? Been there, done that, still have a few scars. But believe it or not, usually it eventually works out. No guarantees, just some - well, I guess hopeful noises is the best term. And I have to say that while I'm not partial to the song, I do agree with the line "Love may be a mistake but it's worth making."
Two, good luck on your rediscovery. The only advice I would offer is something I said to a friend some years ago about her own attempts at a personal rediscovery: "Our feelings and desires, faithfully observed, carefully listened to, often point further down the road than we actually want to travel, but they rarely point out the wrong path." Shorter me: Trust yourself.