When I saw this question on Facebook, I knew within seconds that my answer was no. There's plenty of great memories, but I honestly don't think I've had the greatest life in the world. I've had too many downfalls, too many depressed summers, and childhood passed right before my eyes. Too many wishes that never came true - I wish I had siblings, I wish I had more friends as a kid, I wish my dad never died, I wish I had taken all those opportunities, I wish I had went to public school, I wish I had gotten to know my family more, I wish I wasn't so spoiled as a kid, I wish I had superpowers, I wish I could go back in time, I wish I hadn't lost all my friends in 6th grade, I wish I could keep a stable relationship with someone, I wish I had someone I could talk to about anything, I wish I had a best friend, I wish I hadn't let so many people down, I wish I wasn't so jealous of my friends, I wish I could just talk to you and let you know how I really feel, I wish life were easier, I wish my childhood hadn't flown by so quickly, I wish my family would give me more credit, I wish I was more like everyone else, I wish I was less like myself, I wish I could play the piano, I wish I could fly, I wish I could live in a foreign country, I wish I could travel the world, I wish I could live in a different period of time, I wish I could make decisions that lasted, I wish I wasn't so indecisive about everything I do - but most importantly, I wish I could figure out you.
At this moment in time, death would leave me with questions and regrets. So here I stand, ready to get up, talk, and find my answers. I vow to do something with my life, if only I do one little thing, each day. My first priority is to go to all those open doors, and close them. Finding closure is the first thing on my mind. Finding answers, and giving them.
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